Tough Love
Are there times when you can't stand your pet simply because they are diabolic like Diablo here? Just look at him, he may look sweet, innocent, and pure but he is evil. To be honest, it is hard to admit that I've been having a hard time raising him due to his diabolic kitten energy (I know he's still a baby and needs constant attention) because all the woke animal activists out there will probably kill me. The worst thing is that I've been comparing him to my previous cat Feliz which was so sweet and mellow. I know all cats are different and you will have a child that is much more difficult than another child. But sigh, my future with hot flashes doesn't seem to look good with Diablo. All hell breaks loose if there'd be no change at all on both of us. I think positive reinforcement just won't do it and some amount of tough love is needed.
Giving him away crossed my mind, or I've thought of sending him off to Canada or to someone who needs some chaos in life - for balance. But then I erase these thoughts as soon as I realize that I might die all alone in isolation and the cat might miss some good meat in me (eew I know but pets lack some morals during survival situations). Good thing I don't have children otherwise when they turn out to be bratty I can't just give them away can I? I don't know, some parents lack morals too.
It is hard to admit the decisions we regret in life, like having a kid or a diabolic pet, because all the judgment will be upon us as mothers. Or as women who are responsible for honing pleasant adults in society. And we certainly can't just kill the kids especially when they already have some flesh and big organs because that's just bad right? Pardon me, I'm confused because I've become extremely diabolic and nihilistic it is hard to distinguish what's right or wrong in this world. Given all these people claiming to be heroes and villains, you don't know anymore who is legit. I am beginning to question even my own reality.
Anyway, the alternative to giving Diablo away is to not give up on him. I just hope that his constant meowing will soon subside as he grows bigger. I am too sensitive to persistent noises it just drives me crazy. I might soon work from home and his nagging might push me to my limits. Think pure chaos.
I'm raised with tough love. The problem is that it was too tough of a love that I've become diabolic as an adult. The only good thing that came out of not being coddled as a child is that I've become strong and independent and that I don't shy away from hardships. Now I'm afraid that I am raising this kitty with the same tough love. But I'm not sure what will come out of it, will he grow up as a strong and independent cat like ferals, or will he be a toxic cat full of trauma? I never wished for the same amount of pain inflicted upon me to those I love dearly. And I am constantly finding ways to heal myself naturally so I can freely love my fellow diabolics out there.